I'm so so lazy. Can't believe it, I haven't drawn anything in the last weeks. Summer holidays are over and I brought my stuff always with me but couldn't bring myself to sit down and draw.
But I found a new big hobby. Fotography. Sure, I always loved fotography, but more this "shoot without thinking"-stuff. :) Now I bought an old russian camera (Zenit EM) from ebay and she makes wonderful pictures! So I'm running through the world with my heavy old camera and many lenses and try to get everything beautiful on film.
But this can't be forever, I'm so lost without art, I feel lonely, I don't know. It's one of these times when you think that there is nothing good enough to draw..... I need ideas, projects, but most of all I need to come back to everyday journaling.
In no longer than two weeks I move to potsdam, a nice historical town next to our capital Berlin. This will be a great change in my life and I'm very excited. I hope that this will push me right back into my creative life.
2007/08/08
2007/06/14
New education
After a few weeks without painting I think I'm finally back...Yesterday I drew some pages in my new journal. Never thought that I could like this square format but Nina Johansson has so many beautiful square-sketchbooks on her website, I thought I had to try this myself. This sketchbook is from Hahnemühle and it's only 14x14 cm big, that means a bit smaller than I'm used to but I think it's good for painting outdoors. I also made myself a little outdoor-drawing-kit, put some of my watercolors in a little metalbox and now I'm ready for painting everywhere I am ;D
And I also want to start drawing everyday again, it's frustrating to have a journal that is so empty like my new one^^ I think it has much more pages than the moleskine sketchbooks...
Whatever.
Have I already told you that the potsdam university don't want me?? Yes. It's true... The unpolite professors think I'm too bad to study....I don't understand how they can say that, because they don't had time to look into my portfolio...I was so angry, worked so hard for all this application-shit and then I go to Potsdam AND THEY DON'T EVEN LOOK IN MY PORTFOLIO???
Woahh...hate :(
But I nevertheless will move to potsdam or berlin, I'll start a professional training as a "Gestaltungstechnischer Assistent" don't know how to translate it, maybe ´design assistent` for media and communications ....and after the 2 years I'll try this university-shit again and I hope then I'm good enough^^
And I also want to start drawing everyday again, it's frustrating to have a journal that is so empty like my new one^^ I think it has much more pages than the moleskine sketchbooks...
Whatever.
Have I already told you that the potsdam university don't want me?? Yes. It's true... The unpolite professors think I'm too bad to study....I don't understand how they can say that, because they don't had time to look into my portfolio...I was so angry, worked so hard for all this application-shit and then I go to Potsdam AND THEY DON'T EVEN LOOK IN MY PORTFOLIO???
Woahh...hate :(
But I nevertheless will move to potsdam or berlin, I'll start a professional training as a "Gestaltungstechnischer Assistent" don't know how to translate it, maybe ´design assistent` for media and communications ....and after the 2 years I'll try this university-shit again and I hope then I'm good enough^^
2007/05/21
Potsdam test
God I'm lucky... I've totally forgot with which email adress I was logged in in my blogspot-account and I tried every adress that was in my mind but nothing was right. ...now I was going to open a new blog and tadaaaah google told me that my emailadress was already taken and then I don't know, from one moment to the next I was logged in xD How stupid---
I just want to tell you that I finished my homework for the potsdam university, a campaign against drugs and I hope that the profs will like it (and my portfolio too). Tomorrow at 3 pm is my test. I have to do a presentation and I'm really scared. This is my last chance and I want to do my best but I think there are many many other great and talented artists and they take only a few. :/
I just want to tell you that I finished my homework for the potsdam university, a campaign against drugs and I hope that the profs will like it (and my portfolio too). Tomorrow at 3 pm is my test. I have to do a presentation and I'm really scared. This is my last chance and I want to do my best but I think there are many many other great and talented artists and they take only a few. :/
2007/05/11
Potsdam
So I'm very busy at the moment. In 11 days is my deadline for the university in Potsdam... I have to do a campaign or something like that with the title "on the way" .... My idea is a postercampaign against drugs..you know, showing the really bad things drugs can do - hallucinations, etc. I will post something when I'm finished.
It's my last chance to start university, otherwise I have to learn a profession first. (God my english is bad today, sorry xD )
I'm drawing nearly nothing for fun at the moment because all I do is for my portfolio... this drawing in my moleskine (on the right) was really relaxing....I was just drawing without thinking about what the profs will say about it and I really miss doing art only for me and for no one else.
If they don't want me then at least I new that all this stuff is over for some time and I can do what I want :) .... I think I will move away, one way or another.. Hopefully I can go to Potsdam. It's a german city near Berlin and famous for it's filmpark. So beeing there seems to be really helpful for my career ;) They made films like "The neverending story"...
It's my last chance to start university, otherwise I have to learn a profession first. (God my english is bad today, sorry xD )
I'm drawing nearly nothing for fun at the moment because all I do is for my portfolio... this drawing in my moleskine (on the right) was really relaxing....I was just drawing without thinking about what the profs will say about it and I really miss doing art only for me and for no one else.
If they don't want me then at least I new that all this stuff is over for some time and I can do what I want :) .... I think I will move away, one way or another.. Hopefully I can go to Potsdam. It's a german city near Berlin and famous for it's filmpark. So beeing there seems to be really helpful for my career ;) They made films like "The neverending story"...
2007/03/27
Blumen der Nacht
Finally some new stuff up here today :)
I drew not very much in the last time...just a few sketches and many many ideas in my head...but I don't know how to bring them on paper or canvas. I have to think about this very good because all of this works are for my portfolio and it's my last chance to get this things done till may...and if I mess up then there's no chance to study design anymore..
I think it's not enough for them to see pretty portraits or something like that, I need paintings with a message you know? I'm working on this.
This painting today is a bit abstract because I love love love abstract paintings a lot more then photorealistic ones.
I hope sometimes I live in a great flat in a exciting big city and all my walls are covered with crazy paintings ... :D
I drew not very much in the last time...just a few sketches and many many ideas in my head...but I don't know how to bring them on paper or canvas. I have to think about this very good because all of this works are for my portfolio and it's my last chance to get this things done till may...and if I mess up then there's no chance to study design anymore..
I think it's not enough for them to see pretty portraits or something like that, I need paintings with a message you know? I'm working on this.
This painting today is a bit abstract because I love love love abstract paintings a lot more then photorealistic ones.
I hope sometimes I live in a great flat in a exciting big city and all my walls are covered with crazy paintings ... :D
2007/02/20
Lazy
It's really frustrating at the moment. The last time I drew something was, don't know, maybe two weeks ago. Except some childish drawings for the bulletin board in my boyfriends flat... I don't know why I am so lazy. I have much time, I'm bored, but I can't get started somehow. I've read 2 books from Cathy Johnson (sketching in nature; painting in nature) and I really want to go outside and create beautiful journal pages...
And I thougt this year is going to be different because I created so much in the first month. Strange...
Next thing is my portfolio. My last chance for art college [I need at least two of them, the first till the end of april]...I'm really scared of not doing it good enough. If I fail, I have to learn something very different from that..social work or something like that. Shit, I really don't want this. Can't imagine doing everything else than art. It's the only thing which makes me happy for a long period of time...
I'm scared about what future will bring to me...
And I thougt this year is going to be different because I created so much in the first month. Strange...
Next thing is my portfolio. My last chance for art college [I need at least two of them, the first till the end of april]...I'm really scared of not doing it good enough. If I fail, I have to learn something very different from that..social work or something like that. Shit, I really don't want this. Can't imagine doing everything else than art. It's the only thing which makes me happy for a long period of time...
I'm scared about what future will bring to me...
2007/02/01
Leoprint Art Journal
One of this years resolutions was to bind my own books. Yesterday I surfed on some bookbinding websites and decided to finally give it a try... This is made after a tutorial of a hedgehog (a moleskine knock-off), but I changed some things.
It's filled with 200 g/m² (110 lb) watercolor paper, 60 pages (?). The cover is cardboard + wrapping paper from IKEA ;) ....
I like the look of this book, but otherwise, i don't now. The pages are ... I can't describe it.... when the book is closed everything looks allright but when you open it the pages look so messy...I think I could only describe this in german ;D
Well...I think I will try out some pages especially with watercolor and then tell you if it works and if I keep it.
I'm not sure if I will do this again. It's too much work for a bad quality product. The only problem is that in germany we don't have many good sketchbooks. The moleskines for sure, but I need a book were I can sketch and also use watercolor. I love the moleskine sketch book but it's not for watercolors. And I don't like the watercolor book that much, because of the landscape-format and the pages that you can rip out of the journal.
I'd love to try these journals: hand book! I think they are perfect...but they are not sold here, even on ebay I can't find them.
Sometimes I hate living in germany ;)
It's filled with 200 g/m² (110 lb) watercolor paper, 60 pages (?). The cover is cardboard + wrapping paper from IKEA ;) ....
I like the look of this book, but otherwise, i don't now. The pages are ... I can't describe it.... when the book is closed everything looks allright but when you open it the pages look so messy...I think I could only describe this in german ;D
Well...I think I will try out some pages especially with watercolor and then tell you if it works and if I keep it.
I'm not sure if I will do this again. It's too much work for a bad quality product. The only problem is that in germany we don't have many good sketchbooks. The moleskines for sure, but I need a book were I can sketch and also use watercolor. I love the moleskine sketch book but it's not for watercolors. And I don't like the watercolor book that much, because of the landscape-format and the pages that you can rip out of the journal.
I'd love to try these journals: hand book! I think they are perfect...but they are not sold here, even on ebay I can't find them.
Sometimes I hate living in germany ;)
2007/01/30
bathroom + acrylic experiments
It's been a while since I posted the last time. Well, I'm drawing more often than last year, that's a great plus. But in my opinion it could be more ;)
On Sunday I did my first sketch crawl, altough it was just a home-crawl, but better than nothing :)
Yesterday I drew our bathroom after bathing...it's a really weird drawing, but I like it more and more. The left side shows a portrait of a model from a loreal-ad. I saw a girls journal - she paints every page of her journal with a different color (using a paintroll) and then she drew and paint over it. She has such a lovely style...I really adore her. So I tried to use a similiar technique... The portrait looks very well in my opinion. I think I'll paint something like that on canvas (just need to buy some new ones)...
And this weekend I ordered Cathy Johnson's book to sketching in nature...I really can't wait to have it in my hands. I hope the weather stays fine so that I can go out and begin sketching nature!
More soon!
On Sunday I did my first sketch crawl, altough it was just a home-crawl, but better than nothing :)
Yesterday I drew our bathroom after bathing...it's a really weird drawing, but I like it more and more. The left side shows a portrait of a model from a loreal-ad. I saw a girls journal - she paints every page of her journal with a different color (using a paintroll) and then she drew and paint over it. She has such a lovely style...I really adore her. So I tried to use a similiar technique... The portrait looks very well in my opinion. I think I'll paint something like that on canvas (just need to buy some new ones)...
And this weekend I ordered Cathy Johnson's book to sketching in nature...I really can't wait to have it in my hands. I hope the weather stays fine so that I can go out and begin sketching nature!
More soon!
2007/01/09
Watercolors
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I love the look of watercolors. It's a medium for all kind of people. It is easy to use for beginners who just want to shade and color their drawings a little bit and you can also do wonderful paintings with watercolors like Cathy Johnson.
I've never painted alot with watercolors because my paintings always looked so flat and boring. My Resolution for this year is to draw more and more with it. To learn a lot about painting landscapes with watercolor. Today I made 2 paintings in my moleskine. The one is of Chris Cornell. I did the inkdrawing of this 3 days ago and added the color today. I like how it came out, but the picture of it is a little bit bad...I hope I can use our scanner the next time.
The second painting is of a plant in our living room.
I've never painted alot with watercolors because my paintings always looked so flat and boring. My Resolution for this year is to draw more and more with it. To learn a lot about painting landscapes with watercolor. Today I made 2 paintings in my moleskine. The one is of Chris Cornell. I did the inkdrawing of this 3 days ago and added the color today. I like how it came out, but the picture of it is a little bit bad...I hope I can use our scanner the next time.
The second painting is of a plant in our living room.
2007/01/08
New Years Art-Resolutions
This is another blog. Yes I know, there is flickr and deviantart and all that stuff but I wanted to have a blog where I can write more about my art.
Now we live in 2007. The last year was a bit weird. It was the first time that I was unemployed and I had very much time to think about art and things around it. I sucked in applying for study because today everybody seems to want to study design and maybe I'm not good enough?? Oh no...I know that this is the right thing for me. I know that....but when it comes to art, everybody has a different taste. Professors are strange. I don't like beeing judged all the time and maybe art should not be my profession. Maybe it's better to have art as hobby, as a thing you can hold on to in bad times.
Whatever.
I was always kind of sick of making something. You know, this feeling when you want to do art, when you really want to be creative, but you have no idea what to do. You have no muse waiting for you. Really frustrating.
Then I read Danny Gregory's The Creative License. And this book is so amazing and brilliant and everything. I really loved it and it gives me so much power...
Finally, I have a plan for 2007:
* draw, draw, draw. Every day. Fill journals. Doodle around. Don't waste time with watching bad tv-shows...just draw :)
* Do a lot of acrylic paintings on canvas... crazy, abstract paintings.
* draw on the outside, draw people, draw animals, draw landscapes
* use more watercolor
* find other people who wants to draw with me
* start college ...
* draw more from imagination (because I suck at this ;D )
* draw a lot on summer vacation in Italy this year (me and my boyfriend are going to travel to italy this year, 3 weeks through the whole country. Venezia, Florence, Rome, etc.)
* draw series of things
* make my own handmade-book
* work on calligraphy
Maybe I add more in the next time :)
Now we live in 2007. The last year was a bit weird. It was the first time that I was unemployed and I had very much time to think about art and things around it. I sucked in applying for study because today everybody seems to want to study design and maybe I'm not good enough?? Oh no...I know that this is the right thing for me. I know that....but when it comes to art, everybody has a different taste. Professors are strange. I don't like beeing judged all the time and maybe art should not be my profession. Maybe it's better to have art as hobby, as a thing you can hold on to in bad times.
Whatever.
I was always kind of sick of making something. You know, this feeling when you want to do art, when you really want to be creative, but you have no idea what to do. You have no muse waiting for you. Really frustrating.
Then I read Danny Gregory's The Creative License. And this book is so amazing and brilliant and everything. I really loved it and it gives me so much power...
Finally, I have a plan for 2007:
* draw, draw, draw. Every day. Fill journals. Doodle around. Don't waste time with watching bad tv-shows...just draw :)
* Do a lot of acrylic paintings on canvas... crazy, abstract paintings.
* draw on the outside, draw people, draw animals, draw landscapes
* use more watercolor
* find other people who wants to draw with me
* start college ...
* draw more from imagination (because I suck at this ;D )
* draw a lot on summer vacation in Italy this year (me and my boyfriend are going to travel to italy this year, 3 weeks through the whole country. Venezia, Florence, Rome, etc.)
* draw series of things
* make my own handmade-book
* work on calligraphy
Maybe I add more in the next time :)
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